THIS IS THE LAST PICTURE I HAVE WITH MY SISTER SINCE SHE’S GONE

I still remember the day this photo was taken.

Neither of us wanted to pose. Mom insisted, saying, โ€œOne day, youโ€™ll be glad to have this.โ€ I rolled my eyes, and my sister sighed dramatically, but we stood there anyway, side by side, waiting for the camera to click.

I didnโ€™t know then that this would be the last picture of us together.

Looking at it now, I wish I could step back into that moment. I wish I had smiled more, leaned in closer, held her hand just a little tighter. I wish I had known how little time we had left.

But life doesnโ€™t give you warnings like that.

Now, it feels like the photo is the only piece of her that remains.

Her name was Lily. My younger sister by just a year, but it always felt like she was the older one, the one who had everything figured out. I was the more cautious one, the one who followed the rules. Lily, on the other hand, was fearless. She had a spark that lit up every room she walked into, a laugh that could fill a stadium. Everyone loved Lily. She was the kind of person who had friends everywhere she went, and I, well, I was always content to stay in the background.

That day, when the photo was taken, we were just two teenagers, bickering about the most ridiculous things. I remember how Lily was annoyed that I had borrowed her favorite hoodie without asking, and I was annoyed that she kept taking my stuff without permission. Classic sibling squabbles. But in that moment, we were still the same. Still laughing, still fighting, still connected.

Mom got the photo snapped, and then we went back to our usual routine, just two sisters navigating the chaos of growing up.

It wasnโ€™t until a few months later that everything changed.

Lily got sick one evening. Just like that, it came out of nowhereโ€”a sudden, intense pain in her side that we didnโ€™t think was serious at first. Mom took her to the doctor, and we all assumed it was something minor. A stomach bug, maybe. Nothing to worry about.

But the tests came back with news none of us were prepared for.

Lily had cancer. Stage four. And it had already spread.

I canโ€™t even begin to describe the shock, the disbelief. My brain couldnโ€™t process it. She was so full of life, so invincible. How could something like that happen to her? How could she, the one who had so much to offer, be facing something so unfair?

The doctors gave her a timeline. Months. Maybe a year, if we were lucky. And just like that, the world we knew was flipped upside down.

The next few months were a blur of doctorโ€™s appointments, treatments, and moments spent at her bedside. Lily was so brave, never complaining, never showing how much pain she was in. Sheโ€™d smile through the worst of it, trying to keep the family together, trying to make us laugh even when it was obvious how hard it was getting.

But it was getting harder. And we all knew it.

One evening, just before her last treatment, Lily pulled me aside. She was weaker than she had been in weeks, her skin pale and her eyes clouded with exhaustion. But she still had that same spark in her, the one that had made her so unstoppable all those years.

โ€œCan we talk?โ€ she asked, her voice soft.

I nodded, sitting beside her bed, taking her hand in mine.

โ€œIโ€™m scared,โ€ she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper.

I squeezed her hand, trying to reassure her, but I couldnโ€™t find the right words. โ€œLily, youโ€™re so strong. Youโ€™re going to get through this. You always do.โ€

She smiled, but it was faint. โ€œIโ€™m not scared of dying,โ€ she said. โ€œIโ€™m scared of leaving you.โ€

Tears welled up in my eyes, but I didnโ€™t let them fall. I didnโ€™t want to show her that I was afraid too.

โ€œYouโ€™ll never leave me,โ€ I whispered. โ€œIโ€™ll always have you with me. Youโ€™re my sister, Lily. Iโ€™ll carry you with me, no matter what.โ€

She nodded, the faintest of smiles pulling at the corners of her mouth. โ€œPromise me that youโ€™ll live. Promise me that you wonโ€™t stop because of me. Promise me youโ€™ll keep going.โ€

โ€œI promise,โ€ I said, my voice steady even though my heart was breaking.

A few weeks later, Lily passed away.

The grief was suffocating. The silence in the house felt deafening. Everything that had once felt so full of life now seemed hollow. I couldnโ€™t believe she was gone. How could someone who had been such a force of nature justโ€ฆ disappear?

I went through the motions, but I wasnโ€™t really living. I couldnโ€™t be. My sister, my best friend, my other halfโ€”she was gone. And all I had left were the memories.

I found myself sitting in her room, staring at the photo of us that Mom had insisted on taking. I couldnโ€™t help but wonder if she knew, in that moment, what would happen. If she knew that that would be the last time weโ€™d ever be together like that.

I couldnโ€™t change the past. I couldnโ€™t go back and hold her hand a little tighter, smile a little more. But what I could do, what I promised her I would do, was keep going. For her.

The months after Lilyโ€™s death were the hardest of my life. I was lost in grief, but I remembered her words. I had to live. I couldnโ€™t stay stuck in the past, mourning someone who wouldnโ€™t want that for me.

I started small. I went back to school, something Lily had always encouraged me to do. Sheโ€™d been the one to push me out of my shell, to tell me I could do anything. And in her memory, I started to believe it. Slowly, I found my way back into life.

I began to volunteer at a local cancer center, helping families who were going through the same thing we had. I shared Lilyโ€™s story, talked about her courage, and tried to spread the message she had left me: live. Live for those who canโ€™t. Live for the ones you love.

And in doing so, I found a new purpose. I found that living for Lily, sharing her story, was my way of keeping her alive. Not in the way we wanted, but in the way that mattered.

Years have passed since Lilyโ€™s death, and every now and then, I still look at that photo. Itโ€™s still the last one I have of us together, but Iโ€™ve learned to see it differently now. Instead of feeling the weight of loss, I feel gratitude. Gratitude for the time we had, for the love we shared, and for the lessons she taught me.

I keep my promise. I live. And I carry her with me every step of the way.

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